So, it has been almost exactly 3 years since my last post and I have decided to resurface. Why? Well I felt prompting from God.....I did something new this summer, something I had never done before, something that "would have gone on the list".....So, why not re-start it.....just with no deadline, no set number,
I wish I could say that after turned 40 then my life was magically transformed into all that I had hoped and expected it to be, but those trials that I faced during the year prior to 39 continued....and I am ashamed to say, that without the distractions of the "list" to keep reminding me to live life ABUNDANTLY, well I lived life adequately.
As I posted during my journey to 40, my father was diagnosed with esophageal cancer and 2011 was the year of loss......loss to cancer. First my father, then my best friend's mom (who was like a second mom to me) , one of my dearest patients, and then my grandpa Louie........ God walked me through the toughest and darkest year with strength and grace that I KNOW can only come from Him, because there is no other way I would have made it through those times.
Now, many would hardly say my life is just adequate......I have been back to Ethiopia 5 times (ok, so I fell head over heels in love with the country), I serve, I am plugged in to church, I do some fun things, I have good friends. Isn't that enough?
But something spoke to me recently, no.....living life adequately is not enough. Remember what life what like when you were living it ABUNDANTLY? Remember the joy you felt amidst the trials and the pain? That is what God wants for you!
It seems crazy to think that fixing up ones house is living abundantly but I'm telling you that is where this all started.
Have you ever had someone come into your life and when they leave your life you think, what was the purpose in meeting them? Recently I had that type of encounter. I dated someone for a brief period of time and we just were not a right fit for each other. But something about him, motivated me to make changes in my life. I decided that I needed to stop ignoring the house projects and falling down aspects of my house. No magic fairy was going to come and bitpty-bopty boop it to perfection, and so began my summer of caulk guns, paint cans, sweat and tears oh my!
You may say, how are house projects living abundantly? Taking control over ones life, not letting circumstances control your life any longer. That is living abundantly. It was also a step of healing. You see, some of the projects which had to be done, had been started by my father.....so completing them, well it might be 2 years later, but it offered a type of healing that nothing else could have offered.
You see, God knew....God knew that I needed a catalyst. I needed a spark to light the fire. So he brought someone into my life to be that, to be the kick in the pants that I needed to get moving. Sometimes that just amazes me, about God. He knows what we need, even when we don't and we don't understand why things are happening to us...... I don't know why it amazes me.....it just does.
I wish I could say that after turned 40 then my life was magically transformed into all that I had hoped and expected it to be, but those trials that I faced during the year prior to 39 continued....and I am ashamed to say, that without the distractions of the "list" to keep reminding me to live life ABUNDANTLY, well I lived life adequately.
As I posted during my journey to 40, my father was diagnosed with esophageal cancer and 2011 was the year of loss......loss to cancer. First my father, then my best friend's mom (who was like a second mom to me) , one of my dearest patients, and then my grandpa Louie........ God walked me through the toughest and darkest year with strength and grace that I KNOW can only come from Him, because there is no other way I would have made it through those times.
Now, many would hardly say my life is just adequate......I have been back to Ethiopia 5 times (ok, so I fell head over heels in love with the country), I serve, I am plugged in to church, I do some fun things, I have good friends. Isn't that enough?
But something spoke to me recently, no.....living life adequately is not enough. Remember what life what like when you were living it ABUNDANTLY? Remember the joy you felt amidst the trials and the pain? That is what God wants for you!
It seems crazy to think that fixing up ones house is living abundantly but I'm telling you that is where this all started.
Have you ever had someone come into your life and when they leave your life you think, what was the purpose in meeting them? Recently I had that type of encounter. I dated someone for a brief period of time and we just were not a right fit for each other. But something about him, motivated me to make changes in my life. I decided that I needed to stop ignoring the house projects and falling down aspects of my house. No magic fairy was going to come and bitpty-bopty boop it to perfection, and so began my summer of caulk guns, paint cans, sweat and tears oh my!
You may say, how are house projects living abundantly? Taking control over ones life, not letting circumstances control your life any longer. That is living abundantly. It was also a step of healing. You see, some of the projects which had to be done, had been started by my father.....so completing them, well it might be 2 years later, but it offered a type of healing that nothing else could have offered.
You see, God knew....God knew that I needed a catalyst. I needed a spark to light the fire. So he brought someone into my life to be that, to be the kick in the pants that I needed to get moving. Sometimes that just amazes me, about God. He knows what we need, even when we don't and we don't understand why things are happening to us...... I don't know why it amazes me.....it just does.
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